Sarah Hyland was “very close” to suicide as she struggled with health issues over the previous couple of years.
The 28-year-old actress talked about her experience with suicidal concepts and despair all through Friday’s episode of The Ellen DeGeneres Show.
“At the time, I was 26, and after 26, 27 years of always being sick and being in chronic pain every single day and you don’t know when you’re going to have the next good day, it’s really, really hard,” Hyland knowledgeable host Ellen DeGeneres.
“I would write letters in my head to loved ones — of why I did it, my reasoning behind it, how it’s nobody’s fault,” she said of her suicidal concepts. “And I didn’t want to write it down on paper because I didn’t want anyone to find it.”
The Modern Family star has undergone two kidney transplants and 16 surgical procedures all through her lifetime. She was “very, very, very, very close” to ending her private life when she lastly shared her feelings with one other particular person.
“It ended up being myself that got me out of that,” the star said. “I had to do it on my own. I told myself I had to do it on my own.”
“I finally said it out loud to someone,” she recalled. “Just saying it out loud helped immensely because I kept it to myself for months and months at a time.”
“I was very depressed,” she said. “When a family member gives you a second chance at life, and it fails, it almost feels like it’s your fault. It’s not. But it does.”
Hyland performs Haley Dunphy on Modern Family, which is in its 10th season on ABC. The sequence co-stars Ed O’Neill, Sofia Vergara, Ty Burrell, Julie Bowen and Ariel Winter.